Travel Sis — Smokin'

Western New Mexico stretches out in gritty waves, a perpetual sea of sand inhabited by scorpions and sidewinders. Its voice is the wind, now moaning, now howling, now scraping its sandpaper claws against the metal sides of a motor home, or the soft skin of a woman on her way to Alaska. New Mexico shimmers with its own heat. It can turn a grandma into a crispy critter in less time than it takes her to walk the dogs and check the oil of her vehicle.

Nearing the Four Corners area—the confluence of New Mexico, Colorado, Arizona and Utah—the land is stripped bare. Other than highway 666 and the (very) occasional vehicle roaring along on its struggle to cross the desert, there’s not one thing under the sun but barren sand. It’s easy to see why no communications company in the world would waste a tower for cell phone coverage here. Even if someone could make a call out of this lifeless sandpit, there’s no guarantee she could last long enough to finish her conversation.

Travel Sis gripped the motor home’s steering wheel as she and her doglets neared Four Corners. “No signal” flashed on her cell phone screen. She chided herself for the anxiety that lumped like a stone in her stomach. Before she’d left Alabama, she’d spent thousands on repairs and updates to the vintage motor home so the big rig would take her safely across the continent. Still, thoughts nagged. What if something went awry in the middle of this oven of nothingness? She and her little companions would be at the mercy of whomever—or whatever—happened upon her.

She decided not to stop to take a picture of Shiprock Mountain.

Travel Sis’s rig did indeed carry her safely through the Four Corners desert, and on into Utah. It wasn’t until she entered Moab’s city limits that the engine started missing. Within a few blocks a loud knocking sounded in the motor. That was when the smell of smoke filled the cabin.

Pat the mechanic didn’t want to give Travel Sis the news. She was a nice lady. She didn’t deserve bad news. On the other hand, she and her little dogs were mighty lucky to have made it into the RV repair shop when they did.

Yes, the experienced mechanic told her, her rig was fixed and road ready. He leveled a long look at the petite traveler. “How far you going?”

“Alaska,” she said. “Will this rig get me there?”

Pat looked away, shrugged. “Maybe,” he said. “If you’re careful.”

How can you be careful driving 10% grades on the Alaska Highway? How can you be careful on the rough, desolate road to Ft. Liard in Canada’s Northwest Territory? How can you be careful driving the frost heaves and boulders of the Cassiar Highway?

Travel Sis is grateful to have made it to Moab, Utah, before all hell broke loose under the hood of her rig. She’s grateful for Pat’s skill in getting her coach fixed and ready to go.

But, still ....

The lilt was gone from her voice when she called to tell us she’s heading home. “I’m disappointed,” she said, “but I’m not foolish.”

—to be continued—

Travel Sis — Wild Western Winds

She’s five foot, three inches tall. Her eyes change color with the weather, and whatever clothes she happens to be wearing, and her moods, and the state of her passion at the moment; they can register anywhere on the color wheel from aqua to emerald green to vivid blue. All things being equal, her eyes settle somewhere between aqua and turquoise. But, as everyone knows, all things are never equal. She’s a fine-boned, blond-going-grey purveyor of a blazing smile and a merry laugh.

Did I tell you she’s sixty-eight years old?

Oh, and did I mention she’s driving herself to Alaska? Alone?

She wouldn’t appreciate that “alone” designation, seeing as how she’s accompanied by her three little dogs. It’s true that her doglets, as Travel Sis calls them, are good company: great cuddlers, jolly walking buddies. They can’t help her with the 11,600 miles of driving, of course. She’s on her own for that. Ditto tending to the physical demands of caring for her 34-foot motor home.

It’s a long way from north Alabama to central Alaska, and home again. 11,600 miles, to be exact. Yes, I know I’ve already told you that. I happen to believe it’s startling enough to bear repeating.

Actually, she’s already got the first thousand miles behind her. She started her grand adventure by attending her daughter’s graduation from the University of New Mexico in Albuquerque. I went with her, across the mighty Mississippi, then across Arkansas and Oklahoma and the Texas panhandle, across the vast and sandy span of New Mexico—a landscape so wide and desolate that I could see the curvature of the earth. Between my window and the edge of the world were random stalks of dry grass, and between those were the twisted shapes of desiccated cacti.

The winds began in Oklahoma. I shouldn’t have been surprised by the western winds. I was born in El Paso, Texas, and lived there the first 26 years of my life.

Our family reminisced about the desert wind. I remembered not being able to ride my bike to school because the wind knocked me over. My older sister remembered the redness of sand-blasted calves when she walked home from school. My brother-in-law remembered sand in the refrigerator. (His memory won the why-I-hate-sandstorms contest.)

Oklahoma’s May wind was a living thing, a beast that roared and screamed and clawed at the motor home. It shook our little house-on-wheels until it woke Travel Sis and me at one in the morning. We slipped jeans over our jammies and put on our tennis shoes in case we had to grab the doglets and make a run to the safety of the concrete block bath house.

The next day we heard weather-folk reporting the night’s wind at a steady 55 miles per hour with gusts to 80 miles an hour. Hurricane force winds, they said, and Travel Sis and I shook our heads in grateful wonder at the sturdiness of the motor home. Hours later I watched in pure admiration as Travel Sis held the motor home on I-40 against relentless winds that pushed and battered and did their darndest to topple us over.

We made it to Albuquerque, to the exuberant graduation, to a dinner spiced with the joy and pride of extended family celebrating the summa cum laude success of our beloved daughter/niece. We refused to let the wind blow away our happiness.

Travel Sis is back on the road. She and her doglets continue their grand adventure, as I sit in my quiet office with the window that looks out on Alabama’s lush green trees and blooming flowers. I check my email every couple of hours. Travel Sis is consistently thoughtful in choosing RV parks with Wifi.

I’ll keep you posted as she explores North America. Again. Did I tell you this is her second time to drive herself from Alabama to Alaska and home once more?

Last time, she was a mere youth of sixty-three.

—to be continued—

The Whether Report

Didja ever notice how some folks speak of the weather as an optional experience?

“Looks like we may get some weather this afternoon,” they say, or, “Think we’ll have any weather later in the week?”

I’ve tried to picture a day on, say, Alabama’s Monte Sano, without any weather. Would the sun peek above the eastern ridge? Surely not, for if it did we’d be enjoying sunny weather. And if the sun did rise to its appointed rounds but hid its face to keep from making weather, then we’d call that an overcast day. Otherwise known as cloudy weather.

Okay, forget the sun. We’re going to have a sun in this planetary system, so we’ll not count that as having weather, really. Not including the sun, what would a day be like without weather? Well, it wouldn’t rain or that would be rainy weather. And the wind wouldn’t blow or we’d be registering blustery weather. The fog would have to stay away to keep from making foggy weather, too. Likewise any smog and its attendant smoggy weather.

So a day without any weather would be a day in which there wouldn’t be a breath of air, a drop of rain, a hint of fog or even the tiniest tinge of smog. It couldn’t be hot, and it couldn’t be cold. It would be a day of even temperature, still air, and open skies.

Sounds like perfect weather to me!

—end—

Wrong Way

Rising early, I open the blinds to watch the morning mist's pre-dawn embrace of trees and lawn and Montevallo's aged columns. "Wrong Way," shouts a traffic sign outside my window. It is a familiar refrain.

Would I have chosen differently, long years ago, had I seen the "Wrong Way" signs along the path? Would I be a richer woman now, had I turned and rushed headlong into the mainstream?

I tried it once, full throttle down the highway, screaming around the corners, blazing past slower travelers. The rush was terrific. But the wind whipped my face 'til my eyes teared, so I never saw clearly. And the roar of the motor filled my bones with such sound that my ears couldn't hear my own voice crying out.

When I lurched off the highway—there are no "exit only" lanes on the fast-track—other travelers pronounced me mad.

"Wrong way!" they yelled. "You'll never make it!"

There was no path that I could see, just grass and trees and rocks. I shuddered at the vastness of the silence. Uncertain of the destination, I learned to delight in the journey.

Decades down my wrong-way path, I savor the writer's life. The hours are long, and the work is lonely. (The office Christmas party was a dud.) No matter. Here, heart and head live in sweet congruence.

Today I'll meet with other travelers on the path. Hello. Godspeed. Wrong way, and welcome to it.

-end-

Spring Fever

In celebration of Spring Fever

fribble: to act in a foolish or frivolous manner; to waste foolishly, as in 'to fribble away time.'



FRIBBLE

To waste my time is sad, I know.
Profligate en extremis.
But seminars to which I go
For help can make me squeamish.

The management of time is not
A topic I take lightly.
This precious resource “time” has got
The power to keep me sprightly.

A two-way street ‘twixt time and me
Is what the years out-dribble
If I am wise enough to be
Profligate in fribble.

One-A-Day Courage III

One-A-Day Courage
Final episode (part three of three parts)

The year went on. Every day was a challenge, a triumph. I parallel-parked the car. I learned to read maps. I jumped on a trampoline. I started the charcoal by myself.

I helped drive to Colorado on our vacation. It was May, and the Rockies were awash in greens: dark green pines, mint green aspen, lush green meadows. Surely the phrase “crisp and clear” was coined on a spring day in the high country.

“Here!” my husband called. “We can get in on this side!” The excitement in his voice brought Lynn and me running hand-in-hand. We were exploring a ghost town, one of many old mining settlements scattered throughout the Rockies. This one boasted a fine, two-story brick house, still standing tall and proud against decades of harsh mountain weather. The ground around its stone foundation hadn’t fared so well. A log was thrown across the four-foot gap between house and terra firma.

My husband was delighted with the precarious walkway. He scooped Lynn into his arms and walked the log with intimidating confidence.

I stood, paralyzed, alone on a far shore as husband and child disappeared. There, on the log, planted squarely between my safety and my loved ones, stood fear.

“This will be it for the day,” I told myself. “If I walk this log, I don’t have to do anything else that bothers me for the rest of the day. All I have to do is walk to that door.”

I summoned up five months of little victories. Looking directly at the doorway, as though fear were some autonomous being and my focused sight the laser that would disintegrate it, I walked across the log. When I reached the door, fear did, in fact, disintegrate.

I’ve lived some eventful decades since then. I’ve been active in small, medium and large businesses, learned to travel with and without companions, worked in political campaigns; I’ve camped, driven and shopped across the continent. I’ve had times when I was afraid of my surroundings, and times when I was afraid for my livelihood, and even times when I was afraid for my life.

But never once, in all these years since walking my Rocky Mountain log, have I been afraid to live. “This will be it for the day,” I tell myself. “All I have to do is walk to the door.” And so, looking directly at the doorway, I walk across the day’s log.

It’s a funny thing, but every time I reach that door, fear does, in fact, disintegrate.

-end-

One-A-Day Courage II

One-A-Day Courage
Part two of three parts

It was the day after Christmas. I sat in the living room, watching my daughter Lynne playing with the doll Santa had brought her. She had set up an elaborate stage for her new mothering: the living room floor was a creative replica of our neighborhood.

“Let’s go to the store, Mary Anne,” Lynn said sweetly. “No, we’d better not go to that one. I’m afraid the lines will be too long and we won’t be home in time for lunch. Now, don’t cry, maybe this other store will have your ice cream this time.” She walked her doll around the tiny neighborhood. “Would you like to swing?” She smiled so tenderly as she picked up her new baby doll. “Oh, let’s not get on that one, dear. I’m afraid it goes a bit high. Let’s sit on this one over here.”

And so it went, time after time. Every activity was scaled down by fear.

“Is this how I want my child to live?” I thought. “Is this all I am giving her, a tiny life in a tiny neighborhood, bound by fear?”

For six days I looked at the boundaries of my life. Every day, the limits I had set around myself became more oppressive.

I watched the sunrise on New Year’s Day. The sky was perfectly clear, a rosy glow of peach giving way to intense blue. My husband and daughter lay sleeping in the early morning stillness, but I was wide awake, studying the colors of the sky, searching for rays of courage to melt the cold fear that held me prisoner.

I made one New Year’s resolution. Only one, but it would change my life forever. I resolved that every day of this one year, I would face and conquer one fear.

So it was that at 6:53 a.m., on January 1, I slipped into an overcoat, got into my car, and drove across town to buy fresh cinnamon rolls for breakfast. On January 2, I walked to the playground and sat in the high swing, pumping myself higher and higher, half gasping, half choking as the earth swept up before me with every downstroke.